I guess it's true what they say: a relationship will be harder when it involves the family. I know now what that means. Hahahhaha, maybe I thought it wasn't supposed to end this way. Although we haven't ended, but I have lost my faith in it. I want to be strong, to help him go through this, but I know he doesn't need my support. I guess what he decides, when he's made up his mind, there's nothing I can do. Maybe he's met another girl who's better than me.(that'd be easy) maybe she interests him more that I do. I wouldn't know. I just hope that he'd come to his senses, because his eyes, when I saw them the other day, his eyes were sincere. His eyes were so in love with me. And his eyes never lie. I know he knows it. To everyone that reads my blog, I thank you for your support. Don't blame him. I don't. Just blame the situation. The timing. He's a great guy. A wonderful boyfriend. The most understanding. The most patient. No matter what I do, he still loves me. No matter how clumsy I get, he still loves me. And no matter how annoying I get, he still loves me. We never fight. We never misunderstood each other. So I guess this is the hardest point in our relationship. I hope we can go through it together. I hope he wants to work it out. But I do not hope much. So, happy Ramadhan and Hari Raya everyone. Although my Ramadhan+Raya is ending sadly, and I wish I could turn back time, but I give in. Selamat Hari Raya and MAaf Zahir Batin!

without you

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow show
Yes it shows
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore


*** its over now***

Entahlah kite pun tak tau nak ungkapkan/uraikan macam mana lagi ...tapi apa yg pasti setiap bait2 dalam lagu "makcik mariah" kat atas tu mmg kene kat batang hidung kite waktu nie...

Mmg terlalu perit jika ditinggalkan apatah lagi jika kita ditinggalkan tanpa sebarang sebab yg boleh diterima akal!!

Kite tau walauapapun hidup mesti diteruskan!! kite tau tu semua...tapi mudahkah bagi kite untuk buang kenangan selama 4 tahun bersama ngan "dia" begitu sahaja?? sekelip mata?? Bukannya satu keje yg mudah sebenarnya!! Segala2nya masih segar diingatan nie!!

Ahhhh lelaki, terlalu mudah mengungkapkan kata sayang DAN amat mudah juga bagi mereka untuk mengungkapkan kata BENCI, BORING, TAK SAYANG pendek kata semuanyalah yg tak kena bila kite ni dah tak diperlukan lagi!! Sangat mudah bagi mereka....ibarat memetik buah jer bagi mereka agaknya!! Tapi kite yg MASIH SAYANG, MASIH SETIA dan MASIH IKHLAS ( bodohkan aku nie??!! ) nie still mengharapkan agar keajaiban akan berlaku nanti!!! Yesss sampai kesaat ini kite masih mengharapkan KEAJAIBAN pasti akan berlaku nanti!!!

Pesanan buat "dia": kite dah buat yg terbaik untuk awak, dan kite juga dah buat segala2nya untuk awak!Ikhlas untuk awak dari hati kite!! Jika awak fikir MIMPI ***** boleh membuatkan awak bahagia sehingga keakhirnya, kite terima dengan hati yg terbuka! Becos kite percaya satu hari nanti pasti AWAk akan rasa macam mana kite RASA PADA WAKtu ini!! BUKAN berdendam, tapi itu adalah JANJI ALLAH diatas org yang menganiayai kita!! terima kasih diatas segala2nya...


** start from now onword insyaallah kite akan share with you all yang sudi about perjalanan hidup kite selama 4 tahun dengan "dia"!! Yesss i will